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This is for my Love   
08:33pm 12/04/2005
 
mood: loved
I'm Gonna See You - That Dog

Well have lots of bail
Tons of trail mix
Cuz were setting out to sail Courageously
You and me

Well have lots of love
For both of us
And none of the above
The waste activity
You and me

Im gonna see you in the morning
Im gonna see you when youre uptight Im gonna see you when youre boring Im gonna see you every night
Im gonna see you every night

Well having wedding dreams
And baby seats
And family gatherings
Eternally
You and me

Well have visits small Long-distance calls
And meetings in bathroom stalls
And fantasy You and me

Im gonna see you in the morning
Im gonna see you when youre uptight Im gonna see you when youre boring Im gonna see you every night
Im gonna see you every night
Im gonna see you every night
 
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2 Days And A Wake Up! Hooah!!!   
08:18pm 12/04/2005
 
mood: contemplative
I leave for Fort Sill on Friday morning. The plane departs at 0844. Luckily my battle buddy from class is going with me on the same flight. We'll have to go through this together. I'm scared, but it's gonna be okay.

My battle Lauren left for Cali today. After that she's off to Korea. I'm gonna miss her so much. We always have so much fun together. It's just not gonna be the same without her. She left me her penis beads. Har!

My love is going to come visit me at Fort Sill as soon as everything gets settled down in Fort Hood. That'll be nice.

I don't know what else to say. I should be packing right now, but i don't want to be in my empty room with no Lauren. It's kinda depressing.

I haven't cried yet today. that's good I guess.

This morning I got to go back to bed after PT formation and i had a dream about my mom. I was stationed here at Redstone Arsenal and she drove down in a beat up, classic, brown Corvette convertible. She said she lived here now and that everything would be all right. She looked healthy too. Decent weight, happy glow and no track marks on her arms. I miss her...
 
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Lost   
05:48pm 10/04/2005
 
mood: crushed
Right now I wish I hadn't shipped my CDs. I think it's the only cure for my obsessive depression. There are songs that I need to hear right now that, for the most part, can't be found on Launch. The tears just keep on coming. It's become uncontrollable now.

Today I went to Recall formation and I was just fine. All of a sudden I looked a couple platoons to the right and realized that what I was looking for wouldn't be there. Then came the floods. I just couldn't help it. It's like when you get so used to the bottle being full. You know that if you keep drinking from it eventually it will be empty, but you push the thought out of your mind. Then, when you least expect it it's empty and you sit staring at it, trying to picture what it used to contain and trying to grasp the concept that it's not there anymore. This whole situation is like a surprise that I've known about for months, but just forgot.

I'm still trying to deal with it. I'm not coming home. Going straight to Fort Sill. I almost told my First Sergeant what was going on, but we both decided to leave it alone (for my safety). He calls me his daughter. That makes me want to cry more.

I can't type anymore. Just want to stare at the screen and hope that it swallows me whole.
 
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Just getting in   
08:19am 10/04/2005
 
mood: blank
My last weekend was kinda sucky. It's okay. I'll live. Hotels suck. It's funny how you rate your friends on whether or not they try to make you hang out in the bathroom so they can get laid. I'm way past that kind of shit. Where I'm from you hang out with your friends til the party's over, then you go ahead and get yourself laid.
 
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This sucks!   
02:18pm 09/04/2005
 
mood: sad
Doesn't this suck?

That is how far Ft Hood is from Ft Sill. 328 miles/6 hours. I have no car and no license. Why is my heart so far away...? *sigh*
 
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Fucking Yay   
08:28pm 07/04/2005
 
mood: crappy
My angst tastes like...
black licorice
Black Licorice
Find your angst's flavor
 
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What?   
01:23pm 03/04/2005
 
mood: crazy
I went to the movies last night. Saw Constantine. Had no idea what it was gonna be about. Should have known there would be some sort of Catholic influence. Those kind of movies always find their way to me. It's kind of strange.

The weekend was good. Didn't have to go to saturday training. No TA-50. I had to pull someones midnight to 0600 shift though. Not so bad. I inprocessed a newbie or two. Watched tv. Helped out on a PT test. Boring really.

My whole platoon was LOPd for 7 days on Friday. My DS pulled me aside later to let me know that I would not be LOP and I got my weekend pass. Appently our room was one of the 3 that passed inspection for the whole platoon. Me and my battle Lauren, Gaston across the hall and Blevins (a phase 4 girl). So the males are nasty as always, but my room is always the best. My DS rules!

I have to clean and wax my floor today. Perhaps after recall I'll go have a pint or 2 or 3 or...

Oh yeah, lots of sex for me this weekend too. WoOt!
 
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RIP Pope John Paul II   
06:00pm 02/04/2005
 
mood: sad
So he died yesterday... and then again today? I swear I saw it yesterday. I was in the chow hall for lunch and the tv said he lost conciousness. Then as i was leaving it said he died. Italian news people daid he died. Then all of a sudden he was alive again. And then i went to the PX and he was dead again. I hope it's for real this time so i can mourn properly. The news shouldn't play such cruel jokes on people.

My brother was in hysterics last night. He's extremely religious and the Pope's health was a big deal to him. Needless to say he was already at the bar drunk and mourning. I think it made me realize how religious I am as well.

Today is a sad day. May he rest peacfully in the Lord's arms.
 
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She's Amazing! She's beautiful!   
07:47pm 31/03/2005
 
mood: giddy
title or description


Check out this fantastic model that I found in a Lowrider mag. She has curves, wonderful vintage style and she's gorgeous! The whole site is amazing. There is some really good photography there too. She is Dangerrr Doll. Click the image above to see the greatness!
 
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Question?   
09:15pm 29/03/2005
 
mood: indifferent
Anyone ever been to Fort Sill? Got any info for me? I have to report there on the 19th of April. Sucks to be me.

Anyone know an Irish citizen that I can marry?

When does the randomness stop.

Real update soon. I promise...
 
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More about my weekend when it's over...   
05:47pm 26/03/2005
 
mood: horny

My japanese name is 遠藤 Endoh (distant wisteria) 美晴 Miharu (beautiful clear sky).
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Player Slut
Whoa! You scored 37 Sluttiness Points and -2 Ethics Points! Interesting...
You might as well be Britney Spears or Paris Hilton. You're a slut alright but a rather skanky one. You use sex for your ego and to satisfy your own needs without caring for those around you. It's all about your orgasm and your ass looking good in the amateur porn you're filming.




My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:


You scored higher than 97% on Sluttiness

You scored higher than 4% on Ethics
Link: The Ethical Slut Test written by PlayfulKissing on Ok Cupid
 
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I think I'm done.   
09:15pm 17/03/2005
 
mood: lonely
I should never get involved in any sort of relationship. All i get is treated like ass. But it's always my fault. I give up. I'm done. Fuck it. The Army loves me. That's all i shit fucking need. This has been the crappiest St. Patrick's Day ever! Thanx assholes. Sometimes i wish i could go home, but i'm not even sure where home is anymore. My thumb and middle finger is swollen cuz I hit my hand on my desk while trying to put my iron away. It hurts. I'm gonna stop typing now.
 
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Happy St. Patrick's Day and Fuck YOU!   
06:15pm 17/03/2005
 
mood: pissed off
My favorite fucking holiday of the entire year and spend it pissed off and probably alone.

I have to babysit a stupid private that got caught smoking in the barracks. Fire Guard for an hour at 1900. So it'll be a little late to go out. Plus I have to pick up my BDUs still.

Oh, and my S/O, if you can call her that, decided to leave and go out drinking without me. She knows full well that this is my favorite holiday and that I wanted to spend "quality" time with her. But, of course, it's all my fault again. Fuck that! I don't need this shit. There's always someone else. She can lick my balls!

Hmm... I miss my best friend Ashley. Her mom emailed me. It sure would be nice to talk to someone. Actually, I need to talk to someone who is just as fucked in the head and evil as I am. Yeah, I need someone that just don't give a shit!

And my angry ranting is over... *sigh* I'm calm now. I swear. Just needed to let off some steam. Gotta go change back into BDUs now and wait for my food.
 
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New shoes! What?!   
08:29pm 15/03/2005
 
mood: chipper
Payday is like a holiday around here. Especially when you had 20 bucks in the bank and *poof* over 500. So, I went to the mall to buy new running shoes, even though I can't run on account of my asthma. They feel good for power walking though. My 2 friends and i were thinking of the same shoes, but couldn't stand the thought of all of us getting the same pair. They were grey and light blue Nike Shox. So, one of us got them (not me!) and I ended up getting some shit ugly sale shoes. Ugly in a good way. They are silver, electric blue and bright orange Nikes and very light. On sale for 29.99, which is way better the the 100 bucks i would have spent on the others. People are gonna laugh at me at 5 am tomorrow morning and I just don't care. I like my shit ugly shoes dammit!

I've been having alot of ex drama. Not sure how to deal with that. Still trying to figure out how and why so many people fall in love with me when there are so many people out there that are much better than I. Lets face it. I kinda suck. I'm not really a good person when it comes to the romantic side of life. I all about my friends, but when it comes to romance I'm kind of a user and abuser. Player like in an odd way. I'm like Shane on The L Word.

Speaking of The L Word. My battle still has my DVDs and she's leaving this week. If she leaves with my shit i shall hunt her down. Not hurt her though cuz that's my battle from Seattle. Hooah!

I've phased up to V+20. I'm aloud to drink offpost now and have civilian linen. It's nice. Almost like having a real life. School is good. Top of the class of course. Good shit.

This weekend i shall hopefully go to Kentucky overnight. Tenessee-ish. Gonna visit a "special someone" up there. Yay-ah! Uh oh, here I go again. Such a ho...

Okay, I'm gonna go square my crap away and head to bed in a while. Today drained the piss out of me. Troubleshooting that damn launcher all freakin day. How often can one teach the instructor a little somethin'? Damn I'm good at my job. Hope everyone is okay. I tried to call some of you tonight. Answer your phones bitches!
 
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Hmmm...   
09:21pm 10/03/2005
 
mood: gloomy
i think i'm unhappy in a certain situation. that sucks. blah.
 
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Days are fun... sort of.   
07:48pm 10/03/2005
 
mood: bitchy
I <3 my phone.
I <3 my friends.
I <3 Stuff.
I <3 you.

Today was an okay day. CASCOM commander was on post. Major General Dunwoody. We call her the Star Lady. Aparently she went through the barracks today. My room was squared away as always. School was slow, which is to be expected since I've already done most of it. We had a class on raves and ecstacy. It was kinda dumb. Lots of folks have been pissing hot though, so I see why they're doing it. All my coke head friends left today. It's sad. They were the good soldiers. Squared away kids. I'll miss them.

I've been quite bitchy today. My new theory is that I will be murdered within 10 years. I'm gonna piss off the wrong person and then they're gonna come after me. And it won't be a cool death. They'll probably just shoot me and that is really boring. Remember, this is just a theory. Who knows, maybe Satan can't die.

I need a smoke. I need a drink. I need sleep.

Crap, I have a stupid floor meeting tonight at 2100. Lame.
 
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WoOt!   
07:41pm 09/03/2005
 
mood: hungry
The sickness is pretty much over. Just a fucked up nose now. Boogers and snot. It's okay though.

I got a new phone. It's a camera phone yay! Still the same number and all. 360-649-4132. You may all feel free to dial my digits. Everyone else is doing it. Why shouldn't you?

My ringtone is "Take It Off" by the Donnas. Go me!

Did I mention I'm back in school now. It's great! Today my fantasmic First Sergeant called me out as one of the high speed sqared away privates. It was great! Then one of the Drill Sergeants wanted to show my wonderfully clean room off to his males. Our room set the standard yo! I'm a super girl soldier hooah! I now love the Army again.

What else? I'm really hungry. Maybe should order pizza. Bye.
 
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I'm missed a few days   
11:07am 06/03/2005
 
mood: sick
I've been exceptionally sick. I think it's just about over though. My body does not deal well with fever and I tend to get delirious(sp?). It kinda sucked. Yesterday I vomited a few times at Saturday Training so they sent me back to my room. I had a pass so I used it as a Quaters slip and slept all day/night. People took care of me too. Got me meds and food at the PX and brought it to me. I feel much better today. I cleaned the bathroom and now I'm getting ready to wax my floor. That is all for now. I'll write more when I am actually capable of thinking.
 
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More!   
08:05pm 28/02/2005
 
mood: creative
You scored as Winter. You are WINTER. You're more introspective, thinking deeply, feeling deeply. You love nothing better than to enjoy one on one time with those who are important to you. You are cautious, and sometimes second guess yourself. Dreams, though you have them, are a luxury, because life is not a plaything.

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Winter

75%

Fall

70%

Summer

45%

Spring

40%

What Season Are You?
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You scored as Northwestern Washington State. Natural beauty at every turn, the smell of fresh rain, and enough space to stretch your legs in. Welcome to Northwestern Washington.

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Northern Virginia

81%

Northwestern Washington State

81%

Southern California

50%

Puerto Rico

50%

Fallon, Nevada

44%

Guam

44%

Where Should You Live? (US)
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You scored as Nipples. You're secretly kinky aren't you? I like you already. Don't let anyone onto your dirty side--it's more fun that way.

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Nipples

90%

Labret Piercing

90%

Cartilage Piercing

80%

Dirty Piercings

70%

Belly Button Piercing

60%

Earlobe Piercing

50%

Lip Piercing

50%

Nose Piercing

40%

Tongue Piercing

40%

What Piercing Are You?
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You scored as Severus Snape. Well you're a tricky one aren't you? Nobody quite has you figured out and you'd probably prefer it stayed that way. That said you are a formidable force by anyone's reckoning, but there is certainly more to you than a frosty exterior and a bitter temper.

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Severus Snape

90%

Harry Potter

70%

Sirius Black

70%

Remus Lupin

70%

Ron Weasley

65%

Hermione Granger

65%

Ginny Weasley

60%

Albus Dumbledore

50%

Lord Voldemort

50%

Draco Malfoy

50%

Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...?
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You scored as Donald Duck. Your alter ego is Donald Duck! Try as you might, you have a nasty temper that is hard to control. But you try hard to please, and you arn't one to go down without a fight.

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Donald Duck

81%

Ariel

63%

The Beast

63%

Peter Pan

63%

Sleeping Beauty

63%

Goofy

56%

Cinderella

44%

Snow White

38%

Cruella De Ville

38%

Pinocchio

31%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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Quizzes   
06:12pm 27/02/2005
 
mood: bitchy
You scored as Wrath.

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Wrath

94%

Sloth

69%

Lust

44%

Envy

38%

Greed

31%

Pride

31%

Gluttony

13%

Seven deadly sins
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You scored as Witch. Ooooh, you are one cool spell caster. Though you tend to swoon over full moons, invoking spirits through dark rituals, and hell raising demons, you do have a good head on your shoulders, though i couldnt say the same for anyone who gets in your way. Go get 'em tiger!

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Witch

55%

Demon

50%

Faery

50%

Troll

45%

Werewolf

40%

Vampire

30%

Mermaid

30%

Human

20%

What kind mystical creature are you?
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You scored as Exciting. My, my, look at you!

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Exciting

75%

Violent

67%

Lazy

50%

Stubborn

50%

Shy

42%

What are you like in bed?
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